Tuesday, April 24, 2012

So my first post ever with this blog I am happy about doing. I was super nervous oddly enough because it's hard to put yourself out there and show vulnerability. It turned out ok though considering I have no one following my blog. And that's ok for me right now. I still trying to decide if I even have anything worth saying.  I started reading a book today by Elaine S Dalton call "Return to Virtue". I'm really excited about it since I have great reason in my life right now to learn and understand virtue and returning to it. I want to understand and appreciate the heart and what I have to give because of who I am and not what I look like. I understand it a little and definitely know of it's importance but I want to greatly understand it. So I can really respect myself in that way. I think my whole life I've allowed looks to play a more important role than they should. Now I'm not obsessed with looks I'm really not. I will go to the grocery store in my grungies and I have plenty of "I don't care days". But do I REALLY understand that m body is a temple? I get it. I understand some things about it. But where does my testimony lie with it? I'll keep you posted, or rather keep myself up to date at this point, on that as I am really excited to learn about this.

Friday, April 13, 2012

Do we ever real know how we are going to get through a challenge in life? If we knew the outcome of a trial would it make a difference in how we get through it? Well I can say this I don't think we would learn as much as we do when we have to rely on the Lord to get us though it. See I know that's the key. I've been taught that my whole life but it's just like anything once we REALLY learn it for ourselves it's like hearing it for the first time. I started this blog, which is separate than my other blog about my family and whatever else because sometimes you just need to write. At least I do. I've always wanted to write but I don't find the time to do it. I'm honestly fine with no one reading this. I'm not doing it for that. I simply know that sometimes we need to share. Even if it's only with ourselves. I've entitled this blog "My Life...Defying Gravity" because it's suiting for how so much of this life is beating the things that would weigh us down. That and I'm a HUGE fan of the Broadway Show Wicked. But it's looking for hope where there seems to be none. Being victors instead of victims. We all go through trials and probably are all going through something really hard right now. In fact if you thought about it it probably wouldn't take very long to come up with something weighing on your mind. I know it doesn't for me. But the beauty and power of the Atonement gives that relief needed. Knowing you can take all things to the Lord is a better aid than anything else that impairs your reality for a time. This is kind of a scary thing for me to post something so vulnerable but I feel like it's a great thing to face something and come out on top. Defy Gravity... :)